Back when I was first diagnosed, my roommate made a very strange comment to me,
“I always know when I see you whether or not your having a bad day(aka depressive episode). If it’s a good day, you wear jewelry.”
I thought about it, and in a way she was right. I have always been a girly girl. Rarely do I leave the house, even to run errands, without a face full of make up, earrings, a necklace, at least one bracelet and rings. Once at a party, it was decided by my friends that if we were all characters in beauty and the beast, I would be a servant who turned into a jewelry box.
When I was having a “bad day,” like many people who struggle with depression, i couldn’t bring myself to feel good about anything, let alone my appearance. Usually, if i ventured out of my room on those days, I would have my hair pulled back to hide the fact that it was unwashed, and might even put on some concealer to hide the bags under my eyes. Wearing jewelry would not even cross my mind.
This was a subtle sign to my roommate that I needed a little extra support that day, even if like usual I pretended everything was fine.
If someone you care about has a mental illness, my advice for you is to look for the subtle signs. Find there own little habit that they used to do all the time, and keep an eye out. Look for there own jewelry day signs.
What do you do when you don’t know where your life is going?
If you have the answer, let me know.